The Sacred Ordinary: The Path of Love (Women Who Cry in Aldi)
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The Sacred Ordinary is a blog series originating from a writing course led by Ellie Roscher for the Collegeville Institute, centering on the sacred ordinary. The authors read and wrote essays designed to make ordinary moments shine, and we are grateful for the opportunity to share these essays with the Church Anew audience. This article is shared with permission by Elizabeth Berget and Back of the Flock.
I had just reached the dairy section when I heard fierce wailing coming from the front of the store. As I picked up the extra sharp cheddar, I listened to the raw, shuddering urgency of the cries and thought, Now THAT'S a tiny baby. I made my way over to the deli meats and then the yogurt, fully expecting the baby to stop crying, but even as I headed toward the frozen section, the cries continued to fill the entire store.
Go help. The thought pulsed through me. So I moved toward the front of the store and peered around an end cap to find the source of the cries. It was a young mom, one hand on a stroller, the other checking out just a handful of groceries at the self-checkout lane.
No, she's almost done. Don't make a scene. I mean, we're Minnesotan after all, and avoiding embarrassment is one of the chief rules of our people. I didn't want to shine a spotlight on this poor woman struggling with her baby by offering to help. I didn’t want to upset her further.
So I turned around and headed back to the dairy section, only to stop halfway down the aisle. The baby continued to wail, and though I am years past nursing, I felt something like a let-down response in my body. I was starting to sweat and found myself suspended in time, stuck somewhere between the milk section and seven years ago.
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I am at the far end of the zoo, the point at which I couldn't be any farther from my car, and my four-year-old is having a tantrum over a dropped graham cracker, and then my two-year-old falls, her scraped knee bleeding as I try to console my oldest while digging through an overstuffed diaper bag in a frantic search for a wrinkled band-aid, and then my newborn starts crying, overdue for a nap, and I am sweating even before I am racing back to the car, my newborn strapped tightly against me as my leaking breasts mingle with his sweaty face, and I am pushing the double stroller with everything in me, and we are what feels like miles from the parking lot, and there are so many crowds of roving teenagers who are taking up the entire pathway - WOULD YOU MOVE?! - I want to scream, but then all four of us would be screaming, and that won't do, so my head is down, and I power toward the exit, and I want to just give up, when the door to the main building magically opens in front of me without my having to wrangle the stroller to open it, and a lady my mom's age holds it open for us, as I pass her, she softly squeezes my arm and whispers,
"I know it's hard. But you're doing a great job."
Did I look at her? Mumble thanks? I just remember the tears started streaming at that moment and did not stop until all three kids were safely buckled in the car, fast asleep on the highway home.
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Immediately, I turned the cart around. I raced up the aisle, pushing my heavy cart toward the self-checkout lanes. The baby was still wailing, with trembling inhales between each cry. Her mother was pleading with her eyes for an employee to come help her delete an accidental double charge on the grapes that she was clutching with one hand while she gently rocked the stroller back and forth with the other.
"Hi! I'm Elizabeth. I have three kids and know what this feels like. How can I help?"
She took one look at me, and tears started spilling out of her eyes as she just shrugged in defeat. I immediately started bagging her groceries and used my very non-Midwestern teacher voice to flag down an employee to help us. In that moment, what I could only assume was a grandmother left her place in a nearby line. She came over and kept moving that stroller back and forth, shushing the baby with tender words, before turning to the mother and telling her, "It's okay. I had four kids. You're gonna be all right."
Together, this grandmother and I packed the groceries under the stroller. The young mother squeaked out a snuffled thank you through her tears. As she turned to leave, I squeezed her arm and whispered, "I know. It's hard. But you're doing a good job."
She nodded, just slightly, and as she made her way to the exit, the grandmother and I turned to one another. I noticed we both had tears in our own eyes. She wistfully looked toward the exit, softly exhaling, "I remember those days." She squeezed my hand, "Me too,” I said.
As I slowly made my way back to the dairy section, I shook my head at the thought of four generations of women - from the gentle grandmother to the exhausted baby - four heads huddled together in the grocery store, all of us crying in our togetherness, embodied panic and empathy, all shushing and patting and swaying.
We are called as Christians, as people on the path of Love, to this kind of embodied empathy that truly sees others. Its foundation is rooted in God incarnate, Jesus, the Great High Priest who can relate with us, who intimately knows both the joy of overflowing wine and fishing nets as well as the pain of scraped knees and friends who died too soon (Hebrews 4:15, John 2:1-11, John 21:1-14, John 11:1-44).
In the same spirit, we are called to laugh with those who laugh, to mourn with those who mourn.
We, of course, do this in response to the mountain-top joys when we excessively coo over a friend's new baby and the other-worldly softness of her tiny pink cheeks. We embody this kind of mourning love on living room couches deep within valleys, after the call ends and a diagnosis is whispered in the darkness.
But more often, it is on the scaled-down switch backs of mid-mountain trails that we find the most opportunity to live with embodied empathy. In the day-to-day of human living, we are to let our love be genuine (Romans 12:9-21).
To sigh with those who sigh.
To long with those who long.
To accept with those who accept.
To protest with those who protest.
To seek with those who seek.
To sweat with those who sweat.
And we can do this at picnic tables and playgrounds, on baseball bleachers and city buses, in church pews and checkout lanes. We do this by truly seeing the people around us, by acknowledging the hard with a squeeze of the hand, by whispering, “You’re doing great. It’s gonna be all right.”
